Learning/ Believing

I started reading "Closer" the book being used for the Women's Retreat. The first few chapters deal with the barriers between you God. Oh! My goodness, I've had so much trouble trusting in God's plans his desires for me and letting him have control of my life. My dad left home when I was 11 and even though I cried and begged him not to go he did and he was angry with me. Then I felt guilty, because I was the Princess. It was 8 years before I saw him again, I was married and had our first son. So the father image was damaged and it took another 40 years to realize the damaged. My siblings and I never talked about our folks divorce and when we finally did, we all blamed ourselves. I looked up the word guilty. "If you break the law or commit a sin you are guilty other wise you are innocent." Our Father will never abandon us and he is in control of our lives and loves us unconditionally. I love him and I start my day by praying to trust him unconditionally. The barrier is slowly crumbling as I take each day as it comes. Romans 8: 38-39